Basically I'm Gay
Daniel Howell
Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
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Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:

  • Maddi

    whoops guess i’ve got 45k new people to fight

  • bluefragment

    dan: **comes out** youtube: **removes from restricted mode**

  • Anna Music
    Anna Music

    Every time I re-watch this my emotions get the best of me and I am so proud of you dan! I wish you didn't have to suffer for so long and you know what, you are the greatest man ever! We love you and the video Daniel!💖

  • Stefania Popaluca
    Stefania Popaluca

    Dan is a beautiful storyteller.

  • Panic! Trash
    Panic! Trash

    “What Phil and I had was special” “What Phil and I *HAD* was special” *now wait a diddly darn second*

  • Nihilistic Jenzie
    Nihilistic Jenzie

    me watching this for the fourth time now:

  • Better day andresen
    Better day andresen

    I'm glad I'm not the only one fearing my labels a bit... Like do we really need labels tho? Thanks Dan, I'm glad you are finally ready to open up and accept yourself ❤️

  • TKTurbo

    I thought you were lesbian

    • Buckey

      I thought he was American

  • Mark and Sean are my life
    Mark and Sean are my life

    I'm so sorry for ruining the mood but Dan's nails look so nice

  • Sabrina Broadnax
    Sabrina Broadnax

    Bruh ive been searching the comments i havent seen anyone talk about him saying he is versatile that had me a lil shook

  • Helen L.
    Helen L.


  • Constanza Bartoli Pinero
    Constanza Bartoli Pinero

    When he said “and to all the closeted people” i started crying

  • Charlotte Phillips
    Charlotte Phillips

    Dan you really helped me even though I feel I still can't tell people but thank you 💖💘

  • ejs12 34
    ejs12 34

    Hi thanks for giving me a shoutout! Formless blobs rise up! Also thank you for the video and your opinion because we share the same one 👍👌

  • Sara Jovcic
    Sara Jovcic

    When will he start aploading every week or maybe even once a month and not once a fucking year.😂😂😂

  • Aniket Soni
    Aniket Soni

    Ngl this is entertaining as well as VERY educating as it tells about the privileges you've had, ly Dan

  • Angelica

    i'm comfortable wearing heels fuck off

  • Art In Here
    Art In Here

    댄!!!저는 한국 팬이에요🇰🇷. 한국에는 아직 팬이 많이 없지만, 점점 번역이 달린 영상이 늘고 있어요! 저는 자존감과 우울증과 관련된 문제로 힘든 시간을 보내고 있었는데 당신의 영상을 발견하고 힘을 내게 되었어요. 제가 겪고 있는 문제가 저 스스로든 다른 사람들에게든 비난받아야 할 것이 아니라는 것을 깨달았어요. 댄 정말 고마워요. 전 영원히 당신의 팬이에요. 그리고 이렇게 용기를 내 주어서 감사해요. 많은 사람들이 당신의 영상을 보고 비난받을까봐 두려워 했던 것들이 서로 존중하고 이해하고 감싸주어야 했던 것임을 알고 용기를 낼 수 있을 거예요!

  • Jess Clark
    Jess Clark

    I honestly could say so much right now, this video has helped me come to terms with my own identity and struggles so much. I won’t write a full paragraph cause I’ll probably start crying but I’m sending so much love and respect your way dan. You are an inspiration (as cliche as that sounds but I don’t even care) Thankyou so much for everything that you do

  • Anna Without
    Anna Without

    0:32 Time to kill myself

  • Kari M
    Kari M

    💗💗💗💗💗💗✨ this video still touches my heart as deeply as when i watched it the day it was posted 🤧💫💞

  • Emily Joyce Chesser
    Emily Joyce Chesser

    I don't know shite about shite mood and love the jacket you work it

  • Annie Harding
    Annie Harding

    This was the first Dan video I ever saw and now I’ve subscribed to anything that he has ever done (and Phil) and watched too many videos😂 And now I’m coming back to where I began because I love this video so much

    • Cierra Michael
      Cierra Michael

      Annie Harding same

  • Lexi Quesada
    Lexi Quesada

    I love you so much dan. This made me happy about what I am. Thank you🖤

  • Anastasia Karpelevich
    Anastasia Karpelevich

    so I wanted to name our children Henry and Holly unfortunately...

  • Thomas Sutton
    Thomas Sutton


  • _captaintreavor_

    I'm so proud of you 😭

  • Nate Strayhorn
    Nate Strayhorn

    This nigbruh looks like woody from toy story

  • dan's sneeze
    dan's sneeze

    those 45 thousands of dislikes are here, bc people didn't see they're pressing wrong button through tears

  • jojo k
    jojo k

    oml where were u my whole life

  • Leah Tiemann
    Leah Tiemann

    I like how this is actually a genuine video talking about a serious topic while also being funny at the same time

  • Lila T
    Lila T


  • Lila T
    Lila T

    dan: a tol boi from England coming to theaters near you

  • ViViSenpai ViViChan
    ViViSenpai ViViChan

    Dude... the 1900s... man...

  • Camila Grgicevic
    Camila Grgicevic

    Thank you, Dan. I don't know what to say but to thank you for having the courage to share this part of yourself with us. Be sure that you are helping lots of formless blobs out there that are only looking for someone to relate to. I never thought I'd find someone who feels exactly as I do, and, honestly, it makes me feel less alone in this terrifying world. I'm so proud of you and hope you are doing okay. You don't owe us anything, but you did owe yourself to live your truth, because there is nothing more filling than expressing who you truly are. I'm glad you've decided to do it.

    • Hello Hello Hello Hello
      Hello Hello Hello Hello

      I’m crying. I was already crying (and laughing) from the video.

  • Cierra Michael
    Cierra Michael

    This was the first of his videos I watched, I’ve been missing out.

    • Griffin Writes
      Griffin Writes

      Cierra Michael yes you have

  • Camila Grgicevic
    Camila Grgicevic

    Here I am rewatching this entire video for the third time and I regret nothing

  • faloopsinarb


  • Lily Hudson
    Lily Hudson

    The hardest part of this video for dan was probably including the clip of hello internet

  • Malachy Smith
    Malachy Smith

    And who the F#@@ CARES????

    • HumanUnderInk 87
      HumanUnderInk 87

      the entire phandom

    • Strawberries And cream
      Strawberries And cream

      You since your watching

    • Edward Bird
      Edward Bird

      cant tell if this is ironic or not

  • Meep 17
    Meep 17

    I’m about to go into my second year of secondary school and I was outed at the start of the school year by my now girlfriend and I know I’ve got dark times coming but I’m going to take the good times now and I may be young but I relate to this so much

  • Camryn Evans
    Camryn Evans

    Thx so much for this video I needed it

  • — rosiechim
    — rosiechim

    6:41 WTF I-

  • Kirsten Mcfarlane
    Kirsten Mcfarlane

    Im so confised . I swear 2 god that this used to be 42 mins not 45 !!!!

  • Bonnie Davies
    Bonnie Davies

    The 13th of June is officially Dan Howell Day

  • Meme Master
    Meme Master

    You’s a bitch

    • RosaliaGaming

      Nah you's a bitch m8te

  • Taleah

    Thanks for the G note

    • hannah r
      hannah r

      Taleah when i was

  • Juju

    Haha okay but when are you bringing the sexy endscreen dance back? Nah I’m jk I love you a lot and accept you. But seriously though I miss the endscreen dance ;(

  • Katt Murray-Todd
    Katt Murray-Todd

    Happy you could do this!!! Love you so much and can’t wait to see where you go!!💞💞

  • Alex Byron
    Alex Byron

    jeez that clap at 7:00. This is amazing work Dan, and well done!

  • Julianna J
    Julianna J

    I’m still coming back to watch this..

  • Erin Haughey
    Erin Haughey

    I love this. Thank you x

  • 8-bit Zoey
    8-bit Zoey

    We're here for you Dan, through and through. You should feel comfortable with who you are.

  • E Pittard
    E Pittard

    emo phase is the best!!!!!! im still going through this phase and i LOVE IT!!

  • Gudinichka Otp
    Gudinichka Otp

    Don’t be afraid. We love you

  • Natalie Klotzbeacher
    Natalie Klotzbeacher

    How you bring light, humor, tell a story, and shine hope on people struggling all in one video

  • Emu Nebula
    Emu Nebula

    Probably watched this like 30 times since he released this video. Yes im addicted

  • Swirlcord

    I’ve been going something very similar and honestly this video has helped sooooooo much

  • Savannah Toms
    Savannah Toms

    No one: ABSOLUTELY no one: Me: hmmm... I have to wake up early in the morning to undergo some torture that people like to call band camp. It's 11:27 at night. TIME TO WATCH A 45 MINUTE VIDEO!!!

  • Jay B
    Jay B

    "Im confused and sad and horny" i feel that man

  • Arden McBride
    Arden McBride

    I kept telling myself I'd watch this fully when it first cam eout and kept forgetting until now. But god this made me feel so guilty for being a huge phannie back in the day. To be fair I quit all that way back in 2014 when I realized shipping human beings is gross and messed up bc it does absolutely lead to the exact shit Dan mentioned. Overall this was such an amazing video and you have such a huge support behind you Dan!

  • joao santos
    joao santos

    Me 10:04

  • ŽæùN ŁòVê
    ŽæùN ŁòVê

    It’s OK HONEY! I love you and I’m always proud of you booboo

  • blueh9

    I am nowhere close age wise (older), but I relate so much. Many of the stuff you went through I did as well.

  • Narssissolock

    Yay Daniel! Way to go! Stay safe and be happy. You deserve it!

  • im not a nerd
    im not a nerd


  • Mxstiecal_ X
    Mxstiecal_ X

    *"I have big hands with very wide reach..."* **silence** *"...for playing piano, **-you fricking-** get your mind out of the gutter!!"* 43:44

  • BlancRose2

    9:37 Ava’s Demon theme comes on and that made me happy.

  • 10OOXOO0 1
    10OOXOO0 1

    Why does this video have dislikes?!?

  • BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.
    BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.

    is dan in the dark void again. *DAN GET OUT OF THERE*